in these egyptian movies

on a short stopover in frankfurt last week, i found joachim sartorius' poetry book In den ägyptischen Filmen, for which cees nooteboom wrote an epilogue. while reading it, i felt the urge to underline certain formulations and expressions. i rarely do that, so i was surprised when i kept on doing so throughout the book. while drawing lines, i thought it would be very interesting to see what these different phrases would look like strung together in chronological order.

weirdly enough, cees nooteboom did the same. joining different lines of various poems in one paragraph while discussing them, he even apologized for doing so. i don't see a reason for apologizing, as i find it rare that someone manages to sprinkle words in a way that a whole mosaic can be forced open and still look good re-worked in a miniature form, so to speak. here, hacked up wanderlust becomes home sickness. but remember, this is my very personal selection of favorite lines written by mr. sartorius' that became a new poem. below you'll find its instant translation as usual:

Ich habe das Licht
vom Licht unterschieden,
drei Papageienarten nach dir
benannt
(ohne Federn zu lassen)
ein[en] Ultramarin

ja ich läge ja sehnlichst
läge ich in dir

früher im Jahr
Ein kleines totes Blatt

Alles verwirrte dich endlich
und
diese Wespe irrt durch diese Uhr,
die Welt ist eine heiße Wiese,
Sansibar,
wo es zu tun gibt.

Zum Ende dann: "Es war
nicht so gemeint."


[I have distinguished light
from light,
named three parrot species after
you
(without casting feathers)
one ultramarine

yes I would lie yearning
would I lie in you

Earlier on in that very same year
one small dead leaf

Finally all things confused you
and
this wasp errs through this clock,
this world is some hot grassland,
Sansibar,
where there is work to do.

Then, in the end: "It wasn't
meant like that."]

The poems used were (in chronological order, as stated above): Diana, Die Lehre des Flügels, Liebe und Arbeit, Umarmung, con affetto, Der Tisch wird kalt, Brinkmann steht, In dieser schwarzen Ruhe.

last week, fm4 published a shortlist of the pre-jury selection of authors. looks like i'm the only one who hasn't given her story a title.

i didn't have much time last week, but i noted down a couple of ideas and snippets, like these:

I

in meiner nase noch/ was nach zuhaus riecht
aber zwischen fremden/ fotos liegen/
beine/ hand/ halb in der wand

[in my nose still/ what smells like home
but lying between strangers'/ pictures/
legs/ hand/ halfway in the wall]

II

where i/ am/ sleep/
now i can't/ hear/
the rain fall/ all water/
all water falls.

[wo ich jetzt/ bin/ schlaf/
kann ich nicht/ hören/
wie regen fällt/ alles wasser/
alles wasser fälle.]

III

mein herz ist dein herz ist mein heim

[my heart is your heart is my home]

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more pics here.

going on holiday

i'll be on tour until the beginning of august.

here's plenty of reading material to keep you guys occupied until i'm back:

lauter niemand, ken yamamoto, lyrikkritik, metroprolet, poetenladen, the paris review, die zeit, international herald tribune, hor.de, sumuze.

(picture taken from pictures of walls)

day 122 - what a funny sunday this will be

that's me as a simpson... great, huh??

simpsonize yourself, too!

(...and why not email your pics to me so that i can publish them here anonymously?)

day 121

this goes out to my friends ulla and kilian.

beim film die/ brauchen isch weiss nisch jungs, die/ wo bomben auf barbieland schielen/ bis ein ken sich auszieht/ herr doktor, da drüben, die/ tür, die gleich aufspringt, die/ dreckfinger raus aus den angeln/ ein freund: blasse brust.

[movie people they/ need dunno guys who/ leer at bombs on barbieland/ 'til a ken takes his clothes off/ sir, over there, the/ door that springs open the/ dirtfingers off the hinges/ a friend: pallid chest.]

day 120

i didn't write today, BUT: i gave blood. that's a good thing to do, you should locate your closest blood donation station and drop by. it doesn't hurt and you get to know nice fellow donors when you munch away on sandwiches and fruit afterwards... life is so weird sometimes.

(or, alternatively, if you don't feel like giving blood, try giving money. misereor accepts donations from 2€/ month onwards. and yes, i've enlisted there, too.)

day 119

blankness. i can't think of anything but my going on holiday next week. organizing things like flights between berlin, zurich and london, my rental car and so forth keeps me pretty busy. i've started a couple of texts, too, but since i can't focus very well at the moment, i haven't gotten far at all. frustration alarm...!

top three worst pop song lyrics in a chorus sung by an american female

3. rihanna: unfaithful
I don't wanna do this anymore/ I don't wanna be the reason why/ Everytime I walk out the door/ I see him die a little more inside/ I don't wanna hurt him anymore/ I don't wanna take away his life/ I don't wanna be.../ A murderer

2. britney spears: lucky
She's so lucky, she's a star/ But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking/ If there's nothing missing in my life/ Then why do these tears come at night

1. kelly clarkson: because of you
Because of you/ I never stray too far from the sidewalk/ Because of you/ I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt/ Because of you/ I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me/ Because of you/ I am afraid

burlesque, anyone?

check out velvet hammer for more.

day 117

i dug the following poem up this morning, it's a couple of years old now.

i know it's simple and kitschy and all, but i like it's rhythm and sound nevertheless. unfortunately, yet again, either is totally lost in the german 'instant translation' below. (i've recorded it, too.)

the truth

he shook my heart
like strong men shake slim apple trees
he made my soul hum
like a silly bear a swarm of bees
he was a blue and yellow summer
hot sand and corals and seas
plucked lovebugs thick and black off branches
in winter he hid
crystal shells in fallen avalanches.

[ungelogen/ er schüttelte mein herz/ wie starke männer dünne apfelbäume/ machte meine seele summen/ wie der ungeschickte bär/ den bienenschwarm/ er war ein blaugelber sommer/ heisser sand und korallen und meer/ pflückte liebeskäfer dick und schwarz von ästen/ im winter versteckte er/ kristallmuscheln in gestürzten lawinen.]

richard kämmerlings (faz) on contemporary german poetry.

day 116

day 115

it's a funny feeling: i've heard of people who have passed on my short stories to other people they know who then read them and, from time to time, got back to me. knowing i am read by virtual or complete strangers feels uncanny. i wonder if, just like with chinese whisper, anything of what i say comes through at all. i mean, even posting here is like putting small paper ships on lake constance - what i let go is often personally lost, in a way, so maybe that's why i write good, meaningful stuff so seldom. some days i really feel blank and used up. there are times i wish i were one of those workaholics/ maniacs that just have to create something new every five minutes... but then again that doesn't sound like a very rich life, either.

...and i'm writing, you know, it's not like i ain't writing.

day 114

most beautiful weather in berlin => i'll be out. see you later, people.

it's 1.10 am and i'm nervous and can't sleep and instead of tranquility there are swirls of confusion.

i've tried reading some khalil gibran prose poems, pretty ones, but my concentration is amiss.

this afternoon someone called and asked me what i was doing and i said nothing much, and then it occurred to me how difficult it is to explain to people that you're waiting for some kind of inspirational kick, a phrase or a word maybe, and that if there's none you're doomed to sit in idleness.

i hate the idea of people thinking i'm lazy or deliberately nonproductive.

so... anyone interested in a german ZEIT-article on the Ingeborg-Bachmann-Wettbewerb?

day 112

(picture taken from pictures of walls.)

day 111

before posting a brand new english poem of mine - the first in a long while - i would like to thank Susanne of SuMuze for her super kind comment on day 107. it's always so nice to get positive feedback, especially from people who don't know me personally. you should check out her blog, too, it's beautifully made.

and here's my new poem (CHECK OUT THE RECORDING, TOO!):

A stray dog
I beg you to take me to kindergarten
Knolls of grey sand
Of dry sand and
Rays of canteen food smell
I put spells on those women
The vegetarians
Those guys and their sandals
A handcart cube
I have ridden brown watery soup
Down a few cobbled streets
I have screamed
Wild fidelity things
From the top of my lungs
I have inflated orange water wings
I, too, have skinned my knees
The curbs
The birds the bees I know
Of me.

[Ein streunender Hund/ Ich bitt dich bring mich in den Kindergarten/ Hügel grauer Sand/ Trockensand und/ Geruchstrahlen aus Kantinenessen/ Ich verzauber die Frauen/ Die Vegetarier/ Diese Typen in ihren Sandalen/ Ein Leiterwagenkubus/ Ich ritt die braune Wassersuppe/ Über Kopfsteinpflasterstrassen/ Ich schrie/ Wild Treueschwüre/ Aus voller Lunge/ Blies ich die orangenen Schwimmflügel/ Auch ich schlug mir die Knie auf/ Steinränder/ Die Vögel die Bienen ich weiß/ um mich.]

day 110

i have two options now:

a) post a translation of some random poem
b) talk about phases (food and vocabulary)

i'll go for b).

those of you who know me know that i have certain phases. food phases, for example (currently it's salami). i also have that with words. this makes it pretty boring to write poetry or anything at all, really, because ultimately i keep repeating myself and that bores me to death. at the moment i like words like Felder [fields], Ähren [spikes], Myriade [myriads], Tauben [pigeons], Perlen [pearls], Nacht [night] and so forth. here's an example i'm only citing for evidence:

am horizont silberfilm, baby, und nirgends athen
vom balkon fallen, stockwerke zählen

be ton in be ton und
die tauben die gurren vendetta

was von allem muss bleiben? ich sage
sich drehende litfaßsäulen

jeder sein flugfeld, kollege,
du musst es nur wollen.

[silverfilm the horizon, baby, and athens nowhere/ fall from a balcony, total the floors/ con crete in con crete and/ the pigeons they coo of vendetta/ what of all things must remain? i say/ advertising pillars that rotate/ each his own airfield, buddy,/ just do it.]

there you go, you got a), too.

day 109 is it?

i know it's translation monday, but i don't have one just yet. i've been pretty clouded today and might only post one tomorrow.

this morning i sent off my open mike story, Bärenklau, without re-reading it once more after i edited it for a third time yesterday afternoon. that was a silly thing to do, as i've noticed a minor stylistic inconsistency in the first two lines when i started reading the story just now. it's weird: i couldn't even finish reading the first page. i CAN'T STAND looking at my stories once i have pronounced them finished, and i'm not just saying this for fun. so far, apart from myself, only one friend of mine has read the text and liked it (isn't it great to have friends), so i hope the jury will, too. i feel confident that it has a very original tone to it, so perhaps they're looking for something new and unconsumed and will notice. or maybe not. eventually the story is written and that's the main thing.