31 August 2008

remember my valentine's day poem?

i know that some of you have been wondering about what's going on with the four-digit numbers... check this out:

(picture taken from postsecret.)

like i cared about valentine's day

i think i might just have missed you
thinking of me it is sixteen past three and
you know what they say about four-digit numbers
with all digits identical or repetitive or whatever
it's this hiccup that jumps up my throat
when you're about to smile it's me laughing at nothing
sometimes or just at a song i know you would like
it's how you look at me just right you see i think
there's never been a reason good enough so far you know
there's never been a reason good enough so close.

29 August 2008

poetiken 2008

currently lauter niemand continue their Poetiken series (originally launched in 2002) on their homepage. besides julia trompeter, angela sanmann and kai pohl, i am featured, which is very nice. in addition to the Poetik, they also put up a text sample of each author. mine is Vom Klingeln, a rhyming prose text i wrote in berlin in the early summer of 2007. this is the same text they had chosen for their Lauter Niemand publication of november 2007.

my initial idea was to create a Poetik that was a collage of comments that close friends of mine made on my work. yet although i got great (and very flattering) responses, it turned out to be virtually impossible to amalgamte them into one single new prose text. each statement was far too original and powerful in its own right. so i held on to them until now. and even though - frankly - i would have liked to censor some of them, i decided to put them on this blog unedited*:

Das ist schon gar nicht mehr Literatur. Das ist schon eigentlich... wieder gut.
Sie ist unbedarft, das muss ich sagen. Ja, unbedarft. Und dann auch wieder... als hätte sie's gewusst. So rotzig es manchmal scheint, man merkt doch gleich: es ist liebevoll.
Es ist zu Gedicht, um Slam zu sein.


Gott sei dank hast Du aufgeschrieben was wir getan haben! Ich ahnte wohl, dass es intensiv war, aber durch die Ordnung Deiner Worte wurden mir die erst die gesamte Intensivität fassbar!

Anders als für Sirin, für den das Auto immer nur ein Mittel gewesen sein soll um stehen zu bleiben, -( «400 Kilometer durch eine bedrückende Landschaft auf der Suche nach ferniensis; 200 Kilometer für drei nielithea» soll seine Frau von einem Ausflug nach Kansas vermerkt haben), - spricht es für das postfeministische Selbstvertrauen der Autorin mit welcher Selbverständlichkeit von - teilweise tätowierten - Männern gesteuerte Personenkraftwagen zu rollenden Chill-Out-Zone werden und lässt eher Kombis mit Holzchassis assozieren, denn ein so gewöhnungsbedürftiges bis bockiges oder gar rassiges Gefährt wie den neuen Toyota M5 oder die langläufige Non-Chalance eines Ford Pick Up Trucks namens Taccoma.


Too many shortcuts! / Zu viele Abkürzungen !

ich lese deine texte gern, weil sie sprachlich wirklich eigenständig sind. ich liebe deine ungewöhnlichen bilder, die du für menschen und situationen schaffst, mit denen du sie beschreibst, und bin immer wieder überrascht und erstaunt, aus welchem blickwinkel du die dinge siehst. dein feines gespür für beziehungsfäden und stimmungsnuancen zeigt sich sowohl in der wortwahl als auch in der entscheidung für das tempo, das den einzelnen text charakterisiert. manche verdichtungen in deinen gedichten kann ich zwar nicht ganz entschlüsseln, aber es schwingt immer ein besonderes bild, eine aussergewöhnliche wortverbindung, eine von dir geschaffene stimmung nach.

Aufschlussreich autobiographisch.

"Es ist weich um mich, es wird immer weich um mich sein". Diese beiden Schlüsselsätze drücken die dem Leben und Werk innewohnende positive Kraft der jungen Autorin trefflich aus.

In den Rhythmus eintauchen. Vor lauter Rhythmus den Inhalt vergessen und manchmal ist es gut. Der Rhythmus oder der Inhalt?
Zuhören. Dabeisein. Weiterlesen.
Hoffen, dass das Schreiben einfach so - und nicht anders - passieren wird.



*this, of course, has been agreed upon by all the authors.

ann cotten links






a while back, ken sent me this link to a site that is dedicated to ann cotten, who now even has her own wikipedia entry.

24 August 2008

the new yorker has a great article on one of
my favorite writers of all time, knut hamsun.

his novel hunger is among the best books i have ever read in my life.

i am currently reading victoria, which he wrote in 1898.

next on the list is growth of the soil of 1917, for which he received the nobel prize in literature in 1920.

18 August 2008

bizarre

i've known selma meerbaum-eisinger's poems for a long while now. not sure at all what to think of this project. i guess it's okay in that it links up poetry with pop culture. there's a lot of kitsch in selma's less well-known poems, though, so i suppose she would have approved of this project. to me, however, the choice of some of the singers seems a little bit off. any opinions?

15 August 2008

(picture taken from postsecret.)

10 August 2008

translation request

someone asked me to translate rainer maria rilke's Liebeslied, so here goes:

lovesong

how to hold my soul so that
it won't touch yours? how to
carry it well over you on to what remains?
so much do i long to embed it
in things lost in dark
at a strange silent spot that
won't rock when your downs roll.
it is all that has moved you and i, us,
that sums you and i like a stroke
hums one sound from two strings.
which instrument is it we're strung to?
at what bandsman's hands?
o sweet song.


it sounds a little more modern than the german original i suppose, but rilke was 32 when he wrote it, so i guess that would still count as young and hip. for dustier translations, see here, or here.

09 August 2008

older

schael mich aus meinem
geheimnis nun da wir
die sommer vergleichen
und aufgeben. aufgeben.
spatzen auf dieser schiene
des grauen gelaenders. nun.
nun und aneurysmen.
zehn jahre noch, freund.
zehn jahre noch an deinen
lippen.

08 August 2008

lazy

okay, so i started translating that poem of 26 july 2008. somehow i can't make it work in english, but here are parts of it in case you're interested in what it's about:

tilts the horizon in front of the scuttle up
down and down up tilts unreasonableness.

[...]

all those first times are in flower still flowering
that valley's bed up and down by that stream and yet
time passed into nothing into just not passing at all

that sheer equatorial problem... [...]

[...]

up down up and down the unreasonableness.

03 August 2008

a quick update

lately i haven't been up to much writing apart from the writing i do for my thesis. that's a shame, but unchangeable. the good news are that i am almost done and that i am almost done. with only 2000 words and one edit to go, i should be back at my pre-london authory self come mid-august. no more studying, no more exams, no more papers. sigh.

27 July 2008

(picture taken from postsecret.)

26 July 2008

erinnerungsversuch

schwankt der horizont vor dem bullauge auf
nieder auf nieder auf schwankt die unvernunft

die nachsitzfrage? morgens wächst die narbe pinker.

all die ersten male bluehn noch immer blueht noch
jenes tales beet bei wilden baechen auf und nieder
wie die zeit ins nichts vergangen ist ins nichtvergehen

dieses eine äquatorialproblem… das glücksgetüm.

die ausgebrannten haeuser dieses olle reh leckt sich die nase
in den zweigen will die selben aussichtspunkte wieder sehen
wieder zeigen in die weichen boegen jener suedhalbkugel steigen
auf die boeden legen hartes kolossales heimweh leiden

auf und nieder auf und nieder schwankt die unvernunft.



might translate this some time.

20 July 2008

no name said

i stole the following anonymous comment on one of ken yamamoto's poems here, and i would like to say a couple of things to that. i will say them in german, as the comment is in german, and because the references made are with respect to other german authors.

Lieber Ken,

ich lese deine Verse. Man merkt, du schreibst lange. Aber ich frage mich: was macht deine Gedichte hier als Gedichte aus? Mir kommen sie vor wie in Verse gehackte/umgeschlagene Prosa. (Diesen Eindruck hatte ich schon in der Oberstufe von vielen Brechtgedichten, vor allem bei denen aus seinem Exil - hatte solch Eindruck also schon bei einem “Großen”.) Man sieht und hört und liest immer wieder derartige “Gedichte” auf Slams, in Anthologien usw. Ich habe das nie verstanden: so zu tun als hätte man Gedichte vor sich, die doch meiner Ansicht nach in Verse umgeschlagene Prosa sind. (Freilich muss man auch das erst einmal können.)
Ich will nicht sagen, dass ich wüsste, was ein Gedicht wirklich ist, genauso wenig, dass ich sagen könnte, was Prosa wirklich ist. Und doch bin ich mir sicher: viele, und auch diese hier von dir sind keine Gedichte, sondern Prosa. Beim Lesen fällt das eher auf. Auf der Bühne, Kunst in actu, vielleicht weniger. Performance ist sowieso eine leidige Angelegenheit. Sie verklebt die “Wahrheit”.

Ich mag normalerweise die Alten Literaten nicht, die Hochkultur-Literaten - aber in einem haben vielen von ihnen vielleicht Recht. Nämlich dass die Lyrik die schwerste Gattung ist. Prosa ist viel leichter. Was ist damit gemeint? Ohne hier viel ausführen zu wollen und zu können: das Wort Gattung macht den Unterschied - und das Wort Gebundenheit. Lyrik ist nicht einfach “schwerer”, sondern wirklich anders als Prosa. Deine Verse wie die vieler anderer arbeiten mit des Lesers zwangsweise umschlagenden Augen - aber das macht Lyrik nicht zur Lyrik, sondern ist bloße Kontrolle des Raumes.

Ich merke, dass ich hier beginne zu theoretisieren. Ich will nicht aufdrücken, noch deine künstlerische Arbeit schmälern; sie ist als Kunst anzuerkennen, du bist als künstlerisches Subjekt anzuerkennen. Aber deine Gedichte sind wie viele andere, die mir begegnet sind, eigentlich Prosa. Ich weiß deshalb einfach nicht, warum du und so viele andere sie einem Publikum als Verse, als Gedichte verkaufen wollen.

Posted 18 Jul 2008 at 03:17

waehrend ich ahne, was der kommentator meint, wenn er sagt, er vermisse das 'lyrische' an kens (und aehnlichen) gedichten, ist mir doch alles andere als klar, was er oder sie mit diesem leserbrief bezwecken will. besonders, wenn man - selbsterkenntnis ist der erste schritt zur besserung - nicht weiss, wovon man redet, ist ernstzunehmende kritik schwer zu ueben. prosa, lyrik, slam, performance und WAHRHEIT, ausgerechnet, in einen topf zu werfen, und einem autor zuletzt, ausgerechnet, 'bloße kontrolle des raumes' vorzuwerfen, mißlingt. und von 'verkaufen' kann an dieser stelle wirklich keine rede sein, nicht einmal bildlich gesprochen. wir teilen hier im internet umsonst kultur und brechen unsere zeilen, wo es uns passt. wer probleme mit der klassifizierung oder dem gattungsbegriff dieser unserer arbeit hat, der sollte doch darauf vertrauen, dass diese nicht noetig sind, um zu folgen. geschmacksfragen sind selbstverstaendlich ein ganz anderes paar schuh; wem nicht gefaellt, was er von uns - umsonst, verdammt - erhaelt, der moege sich doch bitte andernorts verklicken und von formverbesserungsvorschlaegen absehen.
zwar sind autoren und leser per definitionem auf einander angewiesen, doch waeren wir auch ohne eure anerkennung unserer personen als 'kuenstlerische subjekte' noch autoren.

und ueberhaupt, dass prosa 'viel leichter' sei als lyrik, ist bestenfalls ein lyrikergeruecht, eher aber ein anfaengerfehler, ein mangelndes grundverstaendnis. nichts, aber auch gar nichts,
ist einfach an gutem text. erst recht ist schrecklich schwer, dass man nicht einmal geld verdient mit seiner arbeit, was kens gedicht im uebrigen ja auch beschreibt. daher, wie heisst es doch so schoen: friss, vogel, oder stirb!

19 July 2008

ich gebe dir ungleiche kniescheiben.
da wo du hinfasst sind nachtbeine.
nacht. beine. nacht. ich habe
deinen arm ohne ein wort um meinen arm
gemacht. ohne die art, die dir unaehnlich sieht.
ich habe meine beine zu dir hingekniet.
ich habe meinen arm um deine schulter
leis gelegt. ich bin den gang, den du
auch gingst, entlanggeschwebt.
ich war dabei. ich habe deine art
gekannt. ich habe deine art umarmt.
und nichts.
und nichts ist.
niemand war dabei.

13 July 2008

(picture taken from postsecret.)

unfortunately, i'm not going to make this year's open mike. i have started a couple of stories, but at this point lack the discipline and time to finish them properly. on a different note, the sound of the texts the jury is looking for is somewhat stylized and i don't feel like serving that right now. but who knows, i might participate next year?

06 July 2008

poesiefestival: lesung pankow

in these pictures: rocky bohocky, lenny rotten, johannes jansen, hendrik jackson, ulrike draesner.



30 June 2008

ingeborg bachmann preis 2008, klagenfurt, austria

in these pictures are in no particular order... zita bereuter, jens, kathrin passig, pedro lenz, sudabeh mohafez, patrick findeis, heike geißler, sascha lobo, a beetle and myself.






anthony kiedis on writer's block

quite obviously, i stole the following sentence from his 'autobiography' scar tissue (autobiography in inverted commas, because larry sloman helped), page 319:

I had to educate him that there was no such thing as writer's block, that writers write when they write, and when they don't, they don't.

28 June 2008

no man's land translation contest

i didn't win that one with my translation (see below), but if you'd like to have a look at ron winkler's german original, the winning translation and other entries, (1) go to no man's land, (2) click on 'Events' to the left, (3) then click on 'no man's land poetry translation contest' to the right. a tad bit complicated, but interesting enough to put up with the hassle, i think.

>and later parabola apples on breath<

low there the garden. that specialised

wood. above it sun's infinite π.

and beauty as kind of uncertainty.

as in clouds. insofar clouds.

inbetween hang the infernal fruit. hangs the

infernal fruit.

were there no grizzly hares?

none there, no? at that fence?

and junglestyle cubes

as birds shrieked to the ground?

someone pushed into this far, so far

departed mood the harrumph button

of his or her Heckler & Koch. wasn't me,

was another intensity group's

one.

27 June 2008

generation einfallslos?

In der ersten Reihe des Vortragssaales des Musil Museums in Klagenfurt sitzen neun Stipendiaten, erstmals handselektiert von den Tutorinnen und Tutoren des Literaturkurses, den sie besuchten. Sie sitzen da und tragen, bis auf zwei Ausnahmen, Nichtfarben und bescheidene Erdtöne: schwarz, grau, beige, weiß. Sie sind in meinem Alter, aber keiner von ihnen kommt mir bekannt vor. Umso mehr dafür die Projekte, an denen sie mitarbeiten: Sprachgebunden, Bella Triste, Poetenladen, Lauter Niemand und so weiter. Namen und Autorengruppen, die andere Nachwuchstalente geradezu neidisch machen. Entsprechend blasiert die Attitüde mancher: Eine der Autorinnen hält es beispielsweise nicht für nötig, sich zu bedanken, als ich ihr einen Getränkedeckel aufhebe, der in meine Richtung rollt. Vielleicht ist sie aufgeregt. Gut ist, dass sich der Saal bis auf den letzten Platz füllt, das gibt Hoffnung.


Das Publikum ist gemischt, es ist schwer zu sagen, wer nur interessiert ist, und wer im Betrieb was zu sagen hat. Hannes Becker fängt an. Er hat wie viele hier neure deutsche Literatur studiert. Als erster zu lesen, an diesem Nachmittag, das ist hart, denke ich. Er sagt auch nicht viel, nur einmal Danke am Anfang und noch einmal Danke am Ende. Sein Text ist sprachlich solide, wie alle Texte, die an diesem Nachmittag gelesen werden. Inhaltlich gehört sein Text dank des Freunde-als-Ersatzfamilien-Themas zu den originelleren Arbeiten, obwohl er wie sieben seiner Kollegen in der ersten Person Singular schreibt. Neben dem Trend zur sexuellen Explizität (auch Beckers Text kommt sehr zu meiner Enttäuschung nicht ohne die Wörter Schwanz und Arsch aus) scheint es jenen zur Selbstreflexion zu geben, bei dem ich ja auch mitmache – von dem ich mich an dieser Stelle allerdings gerne verabschieden würde. Es scheint, wir machen uns das Schreiben doch ein wenig einfach. Selbst Daniela Dröscher, die mit ihrem Text eine der besten Arbeiten des Tages vorträgt, hat – das behaupte ich hier einfach einmal – fast nichts an ihrer Geschichte erfunden. Das an sich ist zwar nicht weiter schlimm, doch wenn sich in jedem textlichen Versuch unserer Generation stets dieselben Bilder wiederholen (Himmel, Straße/ Asphalt, Gras, Hügel, Sommer) und es sich bei jedem zweiten Prosastück um einen „Reisebericht" handelt, dann sind die Ähnlichkeiten schon auffällig. Haben wir denn keine anderen Themen? Oder, anders gefragt, ist es die Nachfrage der Leserschaft nach immer privateren Eindrücken, die uns mit Phantasielosigkeit davonkommen lässt? Denn, das ist ganz offensichtlich, bestünde kein Interesse an dieser Art der Literatur, hätten wir jüngeren Autoren mit unseren beinahe generischen Abhandlungen weitaus weniger Erfolg. Sprachgefühl und sichere Vortragsweise alleine machen schließlich keinen interessanten Text. Ist all die Präsensprosa teilweise konfusen Inhalts wirklich das, was die älteren Hasen von uns jungen Karnickeln hören wollen? Sehr gut formulierten Seelenstriptease, wie exemplarisch bei Lisa-Maria Seydlitz? Dann schon lieber erzählerisch-experimentelle Ausrutscher wie bei Elisa Ring, die mit ihren rabenschwarzen baren Füßen zwar in der Sinnlosigkeit ihrer Prosa versumpft, aber wenigstens eine eigene Stimme entwickeln konnte. Die Schwierigkeit besteht meines Erachtens darin, die Authentizität des Erlebten nur dann mit Vorstellungskraft zu bereichern, wenn sie zuletzt auf eine neue, künstliche Weise allgemein gültig werden kann. Ihr, liebes, erfahrenes Publikum, müsst uns dabei helfen, das eine vom anderen unterscheiden zu lernen.

24 June 2008

ingeborg bachmann preis 2008

i'll be flying to klagenfurt tomorrow for the ingeborg bachmann preis 2008. there, i'll be reading noncompetitively, taking a couple of pictures and writing a take on things for FM4, which will be available through their website by the end of the week.

23 June 2008

in my inbox today: alistair noon, seán rafferty

"Hi

This week there's an online symposium at Intercapillary Space on the work of Seán Rafferty, a fairly well-forgotten but I think great poet who was praised and supported by people such as Ted Hughes and Sorley Maclean. Hope you can pop by... Details below.

http://intercapillaryspace.blogspot.com/

Cheers
Alistair"

22 June 2008

poesiefestival 5 - 13 july 2008

good you've asked, p! there's the poesiefestival taking place, with some of my friends reading (here, i'd especially recommend either the 14.00 - 17.00 session @ treptow-koepenick and/ or the 16.00 - 18.00 pankow one). just like every year, the literaturwerkstatt has organized tons of interesting readings, interview sessions and concerts... it'll definitely be worth a look!

...actually, now that i see this, i think maybe i should go, too...

17 June 2008

berliner buecherfest, 21 - 22 june



here's the programme of this year's berliner buecherfest.


klaus kordon is reading, amongst others, so i guess it's worth a visit.

i read his Ein Trümmersommer when i was a kid and really liked it at the time. it still had its typical orange Beltz & Gelberg hardcover back then.

shame i won't be in town.

14 June 2008

reflection

and poetry went
and sat down
and decided that
love wasn't for her.

06 June 2008

you know

i dreamt of throwing things into that river.

05 June 2008

(picture taken from pictures of walls.)

02 June 2008

01 June 2008

contact

flatness caves in to silence.
dreams dance in spacey
pirouettes of lack.

you: in the wilderness of incoming.
in fact, you're in the wildest
wilderness of everything.

dreams dance into fat sunsets.
stills of sand, the trenches and
improbabilities.

30 May 2008

bachmannpreis new website online, john irving reading

this week there were two interesting literary events on my list.

the first one was on wednesday:
the launch of the brand new, multilingual homepage of the ingeborg bachmann preis.

the second one was a reading by john irving tonight (i'm sure the kcl people will put a review up soon. until then, this link here will lead you to another, kind of similar reading of his). it was more of a lecture on his way of working than anything else, which was fantastic. for example he admitted to editing his texts up to twenty times, until he finds 'that one wrong word'. what a relief to hear that from a gifted person like him!! somehow i always seem to think that literary perfection is supposed to happen right when the words appear on the page. especially when i do not write much over an extended period of time i tend to forget that working extremely hard for a good text is perfectly normal. other cool john irving quotes from tonight include:

i write to a sound.

i write from the last sentence to the first chapter.

[on the importance of a well-crafted plot] how can you know where i am going if i don't?

the first sentence is always easier than the last.

all writers are outsiders. or should be.

it's a good feeling to be a popular novelist, but i value my enemies, too. more than they could ever imagine, in fact.

i got into wrestling because i was angry and nobody told me things. i was resentful.

making films to me feels like skipping school.

20 May 2008

(picture taken from picture of walls)

17 May 2008

guadeloupe

und bleibst stumm sitzen auf dem teppich
aus zurechtgelegten sätzen, faselig
die krummen zehen in das hingeseufz vergraben,
denkst, du kannst, du denkst, du kannst
das lächeln ungesehen machen, das im witz,
auf dem du sitzt, verharrt.

12 May 2008

next reading in klagenfurt



on friday, 27 june 2008, together with alain claude sulzer, who is part of this year's ingeborg bachmann prize jury. we'll be reading during the Tage der deutschsprachigen Literatur.

all this is a huge honor for me little poet.

10 May 2008

for fun



find more of this girl here, if you wanna.

07 May 2008

i apologize for having been a lazy blogger lately, i am in the middle of exams. my last one is on 22 may, so you can expect deeper and more frequent posting again after that.

02 May 2008

for fun

today i partook in no man's land's ongoing translation contest - they're looking for the german 'superübersetzer'. and the task, indeed, was a hard one (see link).

[i added a picture of me hugging an angel at the UN headquarters in geneva just to make this entry a little more colourful.]

30 April 2008

plumage

here's a link to a german poem called leichtes gefieder by nora bossong. i think i might translate it once i'll have the time.

27 April 2008

a review of our reading in innsbruck

you can find a german review of our reading in innsbruck over at creek people.

21 April 2008

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try miranda july, she seems pretty cool. learning to love you more is one of her projects.

priorities

with exams coming up in may and four full days of work per week, i should be using all free time to study, but the longer i'm not writing much, the more ideas for short stories spring to mind. there's also this novel project, that i'm thinking of undertaking once finished here... its protagonist keeps wandering around in my head, distracting me. write me a room, it keeps whispering, and a friend. i'm tempted, so tempted...

it will have to wait for a while, though, i guess.

20 April 2008

(picture taken from postsecret.)

17 April 2008

here's the link

to the event the post below was about. they also give a nice summary of what i have left out in my account of things.

16 April 2008

autobiografiction

some guy (max) from some university (harvard, cambridge, king's) gave a speech on autobiografiction the other day. these are the notes i took:

autobiography = mode of READING?

fictional form + autobiographical content ≠ autobiographical form + fictional content [...well, obviously not!]

pseudonymous autobiography -> heteronym? -> fiction vs. pseudonym -> disguise

truth value in inner/ spiritual meaning of autobiografiction
inner life splits off from the outer
creative uncertainty about life writing?

'the more perfect the artist the more completely separate in him will be the man who suffers and the mind which creates.' T.S. Eliot, Tradition and the Individual Talent, 1951, Faber & Faber

self-fashioning/ re-invention of own story = post-modern invention? NO!

autobiografiction based on spiritual experience? elasticity in definition of spiritual!

15 April 2008

gegen die sinnlosigkeit der romantik

verschwören
mit dir mich
das wollt ich
schon immer.

[to plot against the pointlessness of romance/ with you/ is what i have been/ wanting to do.]

13 April 2008

through/ i do

most certainly
it’s all about the weak lungs

the wild veil swings
the will is wanting to

the sparkling night ring
looks as if it fits my finger

08 April 2008

this year's open mike

if i can come up with something really good until 15 july 2008, i'll try my luck again at this year's open mike.

31 March 2008

my fm4 jury portrait

is here. oh, and the guy in homo faber is called walter faber. right. hahahaha.

out of the office

after a fun weekend in innsbruck, i'm packing my bags for geneva and frankfurt at the moment. i won't be online again until next tuesday, so please excuse this week's postlessness.

the reading at the bierstindl prosafestival with raphael urweider, ann cotten and micha ebeling went very well. (as did the party afterwards...) everybody was really nice, and i kind of regret not having travelled to innsbruck earlier this week. then again, i was sick and could really use the downtime at home.

25 March 2008

after having a third look at my Literaturpreis Prenzlauer Berg 2008 entry Neun Strophen: Heller, i realized that two edits defnitely aren't enough. while i didn't spot any major flaws, there are a couple of repetitions and the odd filler word i should have left out. hopefully nothing, though, that will keep the jury from inviting me to read in the first round... three cheers for anonymous selection processes!

24 March 2008

happy birthday WOAW! - a speech


a year ago to the day, i posted my first entry on WORDS ON A WATCH. it was my third day as what i called 'a full-time writer'. i liked to call me that, and had to, too, as i had just fled from an employment contract i had only signed three weeks earlier. i was stranded in munich, with barely any friends in town, yet with six months of time at my hands. after these six months, i thought, i would know whether i had what it takes to succeed as a poet and author. by the time i'd be moving to london, i thought, i would hold in my hands the first finished draft of a novel. how to achieve these goals, however, was a mystery to me, and even when i started writing my entry for FM4's Wortlaut 2007, i didn't think one minute i could stand a chance to win. after all, i had confused the 'character' and 'word' counts and was working straight towards a deadline that was actually only set for six weeks after when i thought. perhaps you can imagine how bizarre it seems to me that now, as i am writing this, i'm one of five member's of this year's Wortlaut final jury, together with people like kathrin passig and thomas meinecke.

in munich, when i couldn't sleep at night, i translated poetry, and all i ever thought about during the days were names for characters and plots and subplots. now, here in london, when i can't sleep at night i just lie there and wonder whether i should take the risk again; the risk (and luxury) of moving to some remote place like triberg in the middle of the black forest, that has always had this wicked appeal to me. on a more realistic note, berlin, too, is still very enticing. and not only for its literary scene and all my friends at lauter niemand, that is.

in any case, making myself heard throughout the last year, even if on a comparatively small scale, and receiving feedback on my work, has changed me as a person. i have become aware of the fact that it's not only other people's lives that are different from mine, but that my own life can get very different from what i have known it to be, ever so nice, incomprehensible.

WOAW through the months has served as a pillar, a platform, but also as a chair circle, really, with you guys listening and talking back to me whenever you felt the need. i'd like things to remain just like that, wild and free, if you want, and hope this is ok with you.

from the inky depths of my pen-shaped heart, i thank you for watching the words here with me.

20 March 2008

may i remind you of my upcoming reading in innsbruck

saturday,
29 march 2008.

w
ith ann cotten, raphael urweider and micha ebeling.

more info here.

surprisingly enough, i managed to submit an entry for this year's Literaturpreis Prenzlauer Berg. it was all very last minute, but i'm happy with what i submitted. it's a six page story called Neun Strophen: Heller and as yet only exists in german. i might translate it into english at a point, but not just yet, as i still have plenty of work to do for uni. also, i have to get my things all packed up and ready for my trip home next week. how exciting!

18 March 2008

go, guys!

erstmals in berlin und sonstwo

torstraße 60
dank kook read:

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DIE ROTTEN KINCK SCHOW
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Qualle: Masse oder Eremit?

/// Tierbaby-Bingo
/// Kreisverhör: wie ihr werdet, was wir sind
/// Wetter und Geld

Mit Ann Cotten, Monika Rinck und Sabine Scho

Am 1. April um 21:00 Uhr im Kaffee Burger

15 March 2008

the odd beginning of a poem just gets lost.

09 March 2008

translation, as promised

Good and ready to barter
All in the head against each
Against every next morning
Grows against regions
There to move into
To move those velvet curtains to
The play of light

Next exchange next
Head against nearer and
Louder newcomer districts
Pastures and blossoms and vines
Ducklakes
As bonuses come with the traffic
The stone streets

Toothwhite against
Rural dentition against the eternal
When-question
Time in one's grip till
it's morning against.

05 March 2008

gut und zum tausch bereit
alles im kopf gegen jeden
gegen jeden nächsten morgen
wachsen gegengegenden
dort einziehn
samtne vorhänge zum lichtspiel
der morgen bewegen

nächster tausch nächster
kopf gegen all jene näheren
lauteren zuziehergegenden
weiden und blühen und rebstöcke
seen
als dreingabe zum tausch
der steinstrassen

zahnweisse gegen das
landgebiss gegen die
wannfrage
zeit in der hand haben bis
gegen morgen.



i'll translate it some other time.

01 March 2008

cow pat explosion

28 February 2008

i'm in!

in the course of 2008, some of my poems will be featured in zakk's literary automats in düsseldorf. will let you know more once i know in which month.

thanks go out to pauline for encouraging me to apply.

23 February 2008

cock-a-hoop

ann cotten and i will be reading together at the bierstindl in innsbruck on 29 march 2008. hearing about that just now has totally made my day. that is f***ing fantastic! thanks, organizers!

22 February 2008

ANN in DIE ZEIT

wenn du fährst

wenn du fährst:
ausdemfensterblick
lenker, geschickt der
oberschenkel am
gangschalthebel deine hand
ist warm auf meiner seite
vor uns land und
windschutzscheibe
wenn du fährst:
stillsitzenbleiben
im gurt, wach lehnt
mein nacken im haar
dreht der player das lied
noch einmal drückt mein knie
in das hartplastikfach summt
im stadtlicht der motor
die abendandacht.


[very rudimentary:

when you drive:/ outofthewindowlook/ handlebar, nifty the/ thigh to the/ shifter your hand/ is warm on my side/ land ahead and/ front shield/ when you drive:/ remainseated/ and buckled up neck leans/ into the hair/ spins the player the song/ once again presses my knee/ against the glove compartment hums/ in city lights the motor/ evensong.]

20 February 2008

and what's even better

i am actually IN this video! 2.11/ 2.12 - the one with the hooped beanie. my friends are to the left, pointing in different directions.

17 February 2008

round 1: apologies 2008

clearly, the new year's resolution about posting more regularly again didn't help. i'm sorry.

i can say for myself, however, that i do lots of fun stuff here in london, e.g. partaking in a mass freeze at trafalgar square. cool, ay? i'll post a video of that for you to see as soon as one's available on youtube.

14 February 2008

like i cared about valentine's day

i think i might just have missed you
thinking of me it is sixteen past three and
you know what they say about fourdigit numbers
with all digits identical or repetitive or whatever
it's this hiccup that jumps up my throat
when you're about to smile it's me laughing at nothing
sometimes or just at a song i know you would like
it's how you look at me just right you see i think
there's never been a reason good enough so far you know
there's never been a reason good enough so close.

10 February 2008

gute wahl

selber wasserhahn tropft vor sich hin seit
halbkalt über diese häuser kam
der siebte heimatlose sinn
er nahm den fluss er nahm die
spiegelfenster hin hat alle dinge hier
bejaht den kassenautomat die enge
immer gleiche immer gleiche ubahnfahrt
hübscht jeden tag an dem das leben
an daheim erinnert auf neu ist der
stille zulauf jener dinge


[good choice

same tap that has been dripping since
the half cold came upon these houses
since the seventh homeless sense
took river took all things
the mirrored windows in
approved that pay machine the narrow
ever same the narrow ever same ride on the subway
pimps each day that makes me think
of home new is the
silent inflow yonder things]

and here, for fun, the google translator's translation:

Good choice

Water tap drips himself to himself, since
Halfcold about these houses came
The seventh homeless sense
He noted the influence he took the
Mirrorwindows out here has all the stuff
N affirmed the close
Always equal always equal subway train ride
Hübscht every day where the living
At home to newly recalls the
Income silence of those things

30 January 2008

better late than never: mischa strümpel's evening machine

i've been working on this translation for a while, and could finally finish it early this morning. mischa had offered his help earlier on in the process, but since i'm a total nerd at heart, i wanted to get this translation done all by myself. below you will find his original, as per usual.

Evening Machine

saline night, the eyes across one
more uncolourful enthusiasm, the enthusiasm

for the uncolourful. Something is on- something else is

offended, turns mute, viz.

burns, clean, surplusless. Of that raise a monument.


And above the right eye everything, and everything

once more pushed forth, the unclasped force

the blonde tongue, massive herein.

Aperture on aperture on forehead

will you break through cheek skin? blink dim

the phrases, two times no idea.



Abendmaschine

salzige Nacht, die Augen gehen über
eine unbunte Begeisterung, die Begeisterung

fürs Unbunte. Etwas ist aus-, etwas anderes

eingeschnappt, setzt an zu schweigen, d. h.

brennt, sauber, überflusslos. Davon ein Denkmal.


Und über dem rechten Auge alles, und alles

dann herausgetrieben, die losgelassene Kraft

die blonde Zunge, schwer hinein.

Blende auf Blende an der Stirn

dringst durch die Wangen du? blinkst ab

zu Sätzen, keine Ahnung, und die zweimal.

27 January 2008

(picture taken from postsecret.)

resistance at work

here's an anti-globalization documentary called the fourth world war.
it contains some pretty rough material and may not be suited for everybody to watch.
if you still want to go ahead, i hope you guys are over sixteen and speak some spanish.

...remember, though, that in whatever direction you're moving, VIOLENCE IS NOT THE WAY TO GO!

i'm linking to this just because i want to remind all of us that in some areas of the world, life is far less comfortable than where we live.

24 January 2008

ich habe zu meinem eigenen hügel
kakteen gestaut sand seen
verdammte sandseen
vor wand
der horizont macht blau
ein halber untergang
und wo du flogst da bin ich
ungenau i am a hill i think
ein hügel bist du auch.

[i'm afraid this doesn't really work in english.... but anyways, here you all go:

i have for my own hill/ dammed cacti sand lakes/ damned sand lakes pre tense/ the horizon skips blue/ half a sun down/ where you flew/ i'm improper a hill think/ a hill you are, too.]

just for shits and giggles, here's the translation google translate gives you when you enter the german original version above:

i had my own hill
sand cacti dammed lakes
damned sandseen front wall
the horizon is blue
among a half
and where you because i am flew
i am a vague hill i think
are you a hill too.


here you can see very well how difficult it is to get a point across. especially parts like der horizont macht blau, which literally means 'the horizon makes blue', but would actually have to be translated 'the horizon skips work'. i went for the mixed-up version and took 'the horizon skips blue' which does kind of make sense in the context of a sunset. ... i'm just thinking that my own translation probably won't make any more sense to you than the generated one ... oh well.

23 January 2008

i am totally aware of the fact that i owe you a post

i have started writing a piece for the MDR competition, but it's not coming along very well. i've also done a little thinking about whether i should maybe stay here in london instead of moving back to berlin this summer. it's tricky.

17 January 2008

dances in front of her own works at weddings (if you just happen to have one) - shirana shahbazi

writing about art isn't among the easiest things to do. writing about people, it seems, is much easier. at least when they're drinking german beer and wearing white socks in ocher low shoes. just like it is with red orchids placed in front of a red background, maybe this is one of those moments when an artist goes 'a little bit too far'.

this kind of stuff, i know, is what you want to hear. you want to hear about artists that are fun to look at, because - and that's with all honesty here - many of them don't have much to say. and when i set out to the curve tonight, pushing through london commute, i feared that could have been a mistake. so much the happier i was, when shirana shahbazi opened the night by displaying some of her older work, 'that you haven't seen yet', she assumes. but we have: photography inspired by journalism, photographs of painted photographies, photography knotted into rugs, and a collection of reportage-ish photography she produced for a major swiss insurance company - bewildered by its remote culture.

here, i think, is where the common commentator would build a bridge to her iranian family background/ life/ personality traits, perhaps even.

i, instead, would like to focus on 'remote'. remote, to me, describes her art and style just fine; 'remote' in a delicate, friendly way. 'it's better to have a clear intention about what you are going to do beforehand than having to clarify your artistry verbally after.' so, i ask shirana, does it matter at all whether people understand what you are doing? the attendant crowd catches their breath. shirana, too, seems caught off guard: 'would it sound very bad if i said no to this?' not at all, i find. 'for me it's satisfying when they think my work is beautiful, enjoyable.' and i am taking this earlier statement of hers out of context: 'whether my art gets sold or not, that's none of my business.' i'm not sure whether, at this point, she notices the guy leaning against her 18 meters long wall painting. 'you get a lot more relaxed once you've realized how hopeless it is to talk back [at the industry for pigeon-hole-ing her work as being young, iranian, female, german, swiss, identity-seeking or whatever].' 'i depend on clear thoughts as a starting point for my work, she explains, i need to know: what am i going to do tomorrow?'

'to depict a place far away', she said, was all she intended to do when she flew to iran to work on her degree show. to disclose what it's like if you know such a place very well. in iran, she goes on to explain, people were having a hard time seeing novelty in her photography: 'this is just iranian', she says they would say, 'what makes it so special?' to me, for sure, its beauty.

15 January 2008

(picture taken from postsecret.)

when i can't write over a longer period of time

i get nervous. my ideas seem callow, i can't find white paper. very uncomfortable.

14 January 2008

Ach, ich fühl' es

Ach, ich fühl' es! Keine Tugend
Ist so recht nach meinem Sinn;
Stets befind' ich mich am wohlsten,
Wenn ich damit fertig bin.
Dahingegen so ein Laster,
Ja, das macht mir viel Pläsier;
Und ich hab' die hübschen Sachen
Lieber vor als hinter mir.


Wilhelm Busch (1832-1908)

12 January 2008

11 January 2008

next reading in austria

will take place in innsbruck on one of the days between 27 march and 30 march 2008.
more detailed information later, this is just so you know.

08 January 2008

packing

just realized i brought my notebook on holiday with me and haven't written a word into it during the past three weeks. that's a bit disappointing. i did write a couple of poems in draft emails, but these are so bad that i don't dare putting them on display here.

there's also the mdr literary price. i'd like to partake and hope i'll come up with something in time - i've become a little unoriented lately when it comes to my writing, i'm afraid.

07 January 2008

(picture taken from postsecret.)

05 January 2008

oh and

ken has had this poem up on his blog forever
(a month rather), and the more often i read it the better i like it. his kitschy stuff is really cute sometimes.

here's my translation of one of his earlier poems.

poetic deed

i partook here with the poem-version of my story Bärenklau - one that hasn't been published yet, but liked very much by the people who have heard or read it. i tried writing something separate, but wasn't quite happy with any of it. Bärenklau, though, has always been close to my heart; this becomes evident in the english translation i made of it, too. i'm really sorry i can't post it here just yet, as - as usual - the competition entry mustn't be published. instead, as a consolation gift, i'll show you a translation of one of those poems i wrote and discarded.

it's called up above (or should i call it up abaph?):

i’m your affliction
seraph

can you
lathe me

your nine to five
wings aph

they lathe themselves
low where i am.

03 January 2008

get tough on arms trade - i have signed up!

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happy 2008

when i drove back from germany to switzerland this afternoon, the passing landscape made me think of one of his poems alistair noon read in london a couple of weeks ago. in a passage it described the changing view during a journey across the atlantic, and for a while went SEA. SEA. SEA. and so on. (unfortunately, i couldn't find it online - will have to ask him where it can be found.) well, anyways, this listing style made me think of the following poem. only a first draft, but since i promised to post stuff more often again....


die fahrten
ziehen sich immer
...
strecke kurve wald feld
huegellandschaft dorf
fabrik stadt stadt stadt stadt
ein autobahnkreuz strecke dann
strecke kurve wald feld bald
huegellandschaft dorf dann
[erinnern]
...
zög ich aus dir
das prophetische
sag mir was bliebe
dem
weg.